Re: [MLUG - DISCUSSION] A nice site :)

[Michael <EMAIL:PROTECTED>]

> http://www.fuckthatjob.com/
> What else can I say but Wow :)

I think the long period without real work ruined me. I tried to do it
again and just sucked at it. I am now horribly slow at such work
(literally what I would have once done in an afternoon takes a week) and
constantly paranoid and badly demotivated. I can still crack out code on
my own pretty well but for anyone else it's become a painful experience.

I think it's partly a chemical problem.. maybe caused by depression and
stress. I have been taking certain pills and they have helped some. Also
I've been cutting the caffine which I think has helped too.

The rest I think is just because I'm extremely disenchanted. I don't want
to be a professional geek anymore. I could get paid more delivering pizza
and not have to worry constantly. With programming I always am worried
that if I work to fast I'll finish the project and get layed off or take
to long and get fired.

I was never a perfect employee. I'm very laid back and somewhat stubborn
but I'm honestly embarassed by how bad an employee I am now. I am very
up-to-date with technology and constantly expanding my knowledge but I
just can't handle having a job anymore. Dot bomb shell shock I think. It's
why I'm trying to find some other field to work in despite my love of
Linux and programming.

Maybe I had silly hopes to begin with. Write some quality innovative code,
have a good paycheck, have respect of peers, don't hafta worry about being
unemployed. I never wanted to get rich (like many dot com folks) but I
still aimed to high. Bummer. My current goal is to find some way to make
~$300/month (enough to cover my bills) leaving time to play in my
aquaponics garden and do some opensource coding.
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